great caesar's ghost

I guess a blog is in order. It has been so long that I forgot which of my numerous passwords get me into blogger. It has been so long that I am totally sure that no one I know reads this blog anymore. It has been so long that I forgot how to write these things. I actually think maybe I've outgrown this stuff. Nothing I do (or have done to me) seems all that fascinating anymore to the point where I've just gotta let you know about it. However, I was motivated to post b/c someone new commented (see last post, below), so I feel as tho I must represent, as cancer grrl should.

Cancer is a small part of my life at this point, I mean I still go to the poison cafe once every 3 weeks for my shot of herceptin, I still have fake boobs and really short hair, and i still get the occasional cancer related panic attack, but other than that, I don't think about it much. I'm much more concerned with surviving my job and still maintaining my precious triathlon schedule than any ole cancer. It is hard to train and work at the same time. I have never had to do that before, because I've never had a real job before. And hopefully this too shall pass. I mean, what actually burns me is that I could do my job from home just as well, in fact, way easier than sitting in my little freakin office and taking extra long lunches in order to go to the gym. Seems so counterproductive. Everything I do could be done by telecommuting. I have no necessary face time with anyone (thank goodness).

I just merrily typed a paragraph about my job and then realized that when i started blogging I vowed to myself that I'd never post about my job. I think I'll stick with that vow. (insert dark mysterious hint) Especially since my line of da law is peopled by some very serious and heavy duty individuals...

Anyway, i am all anxious right now because I'm doing the five boro bike tour tomorrow. I'm anxious first of all b/c i have to get there super early, and i really have a problem waking up early in the morning. I'm also nervous b/c there are going to be so many bikers there, and I'm worried that I'll either get stuck with slow people, or stuck with fast ones, or get in some lane where people will get too close to me or something. Oh hell. I just fear anything new, especially when there are other people involved (l'enfer, c'est les autres...). But it should be fun anyway, and my new bike is so great (specialized tricross comp), that when I get on it I lose all sense of time and the road just rolls and rolls...

Anyway, that's all for now
until u read again
cg